Sunday, November 15, 2009

Bye Bye PT

Dear PT,

It was hard watching you drive away today. We had a wonderful 4 and a 1/2 years together. I remember not being thrilled about you in the beginning but now I don't know if another car can fully take your place. I'll miss you!



Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Epiphanies

Passing comments can really change your perspective on life. For the past couple of weeks, I've had some real epiphanies thanks to my friends. For so long the word "single" has had such a bad connotation to me. But why? Because I've always found myself in relationships, the word single was synonymous with "unwanted." The thought of being alone scared me. I've realized that I ground myself in my relationship. That was my source of security and stability. I was comfortable and knew what to expect. But looking back, it makes me wonder - was I losing myself in that process?

As insignificant as it may seem, I changed my facebook relationship status to single. I know some of you are thinking, "come on! it's just facebook!" And trust me, I know exactly where you are coming from. But I think another group of you understand the significance of declaring to everyone you know that you are now labeling yourself as "single." But it was the past couple weeks that I have accepted the greatness that comes along with being single, especially at this point in my life.

I found myself in a conversation about boys a few days ago (surprise surprise). We were talking about this very subject of being single. I declared, "Being single is exhausting!" In a relationship, I didn't have to worry about being engaging or interesting or flirty. By that I mean, attracting the opposite sex is not a priority. And I suppose I don't have to now but there is some pressure to show the best sides of you (inside and out) at all times. But I have to reframe my thinking from "single means searching for a relationship" to "single means searching for myself." My friend, Alexis, said something that was so poignant and I don't even think she realized it. She said something to the effect of, "I'm single and I'm okay with that because no one can make me as happy right now as I can." That comment hit me like a ton of bricks. It is so true - how can I expect someone else to make me happy, if I'm not the happiness I can be when I'm by myself?

I'm at a significant crossroads in life. I'm finally starting my professional career, I'm working towards financial independence, and I feel like a woman as silly as that sounds. It is equally as important for me right now to be looking inwards and be strong in who I am.

Being single isn't a bad thing - it is a powerful thing! Ingrid shared a fantastic quote with me from the ultimate single girl's source, Sex and the City: "Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty, sexy, and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with." I will think of this quote any time I'm feeling a bit insecure and I'm sure it will perk me right up!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Dreading...

I did something tonight that I've been dreading for quite some time. I finally took the leap and removed any physical memories of my past relationship. It sounds easy but my heart broke a little more each time I took a picture down. I didn't stop there though - I tried to put away anything that reminded me of him. I found that to be a little impossible without taking everything down. It seems that after two years, everything reminds me of him.

I have to look at the positives though. I realize this is a necessary step in this whole process called healing. And it became clear to me that I can't just expect I will move on without doing anything. I know the saying is that time will heal everything so I have to keep moving forward. Another good thing is that I won't see us everywhere I turn. Maybe I will eventually stop thinking "Where did it go wrong? Look how happy we were."

But the unfortunate thing is that even though the pictures aren't around anymore, my memories will be around for a long time. It's just hard to face the fact that certain people are leaving my life, that certain traditions will no longer happen, and new memories will start to take their place. I look forward to the time that my memories make me happy rather than sad and confused. Well, let me rephrase...I look forward to the time that my memories do not include the emotions: sad, confused, and lonely because many times I can look back and smile.

So I suppose it's obvious I have a long way to go in moving on, but I'm slowly but surely making my way. I'm sure I'll have more milestones to share with you soon...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Gentleman vs. Gingerbread man

I just finished reading a fantastic book called "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. I will share my insights from time to time as I reflect on the ideas that stood out to me.

The first insight to share:
"A dash of tenderness in the way you treat a man means the difference between being married to a gentle-man or a gingerbread-man. One is heroic and tender; the other is stale and cut out of the same mold as the rest of them."

I really liked that comparison because there have been countless times that myself and my friends have heard the line: "I'm not like other guys." And then what happens? They turn out to be like every other guy. I definitely want a gentle-man.

The book goes on to give some advice to us ladies:
• Crawl into a guy’s world and observe what in that world is important.
• Find opportunities to discuss these “fascinating” topics with him.
• Don’t try and change them to be more like a girl. Appreciate the qualities that make him a man.

Seems easy enough...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

It's all in the genes...

I've shared what I learned with a lot of my girlfriends and we all seemed to have reacted the same way so I'm curious about what you think.

I'm doing a paper for one of my classes about the sexual habits of undergraduate students. One of the articles I read described a survey that was done to determine what sexual values students agree with. There were three categories: absolutism (no sex until marriage), relativism (if in a relationship, sex is okay), and hedonism ("if it feels good, do it"). Most of the results were fairly expected. Men are more hedonistic; women are more relativistic. Students that have "hooked up" with someone or were in a "friends with benefits" type of situation were more hedonistic. You get the idea.

The findings that were most interesting to me were the conclusions that were drawn based on the differences between men and women. It said that the pleasure focused, hedonistic male, is seen as responding to his biological and genetic heritage. They are genetically wired to seek out numerous females to ensure that their own genes are reproduced and passed on. Then it goes on to say that women are genetically wired to be selective and prefer males who show an interest to stick around, provide economic resources, and help rear their offspring.

Now I know that got pretty technical, so I'm going to break it down. Basically this article said that it is natural for men to be with as many women as possible. And women get the short end of the stick because we tend to look for one man.

Does this really mean that there is no hope?? I mean, I guess I can see where the article is coming from a purely biological stand point. But, what about values or standards? what about self control? what about love? Aren't those things that must be considered too? I think so.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Love Love Love!

I can't help but smile for so many reasons when I listen to and watch this video. Of course, one of those reasons is because my huge crush :)



Saturday, October 10, 2009

New Beginnings

I'm 24 and I've perpetually been in a relationship since I was 15...9 years! Today is October 10, 2009 and I am completely and totally single. Believe it or not, I'm okay. Anyone who knows me knows that I love being in a relationship, that's just who I am. But I've finally come to accept that I am in fact not in a relationship. This realization didn't come without tears, quite a few of them actually. But I woke up today feeling good.

You may be asking what is the difference between "single" and "completely and totally single." Well, during the last 9 years, at one point or another, I've been "single." But there was always someone there - either I had feelings for someone, and that someone was giving my glimpses of hope or someone had feelings for me so I was trying to figure out if I had feelings for them, the cycle goes on and on. So I find myself in uncharted territories. I'm in a place where all I have to worry about is me. I'll make my own decisions, plan my day according to what I want to do, make myself a priority and that is so refreshing.

Am I giving up on relationships? Nope. But there are two things I know for sure:

1) There is a lot of learning and growing that I have to do on my own. I have to learn how to be happy by myself.

2) I know that I will find the one eventually so I just have to be willing to go on the journey.

I think it will be fun to document my journey along the way. My hope is that all you ladies out there will be able to relate to the things I'm going through. I'll take you along for the ride through healing my heartbreak, learning to love myself and love again, and perhaps some dating adventures. This blog will be an ode to single ladies so please, share your stories and insights. Here's to new beginnings, I won't promise that I will always be this optimistic but I will always be hopeful :)

Sunday, September 20, 2009

In Desperate Need...

...to travel!

I've absolutely loved all the adventures I've been on so far but I now I have the "travel bug." I want to start planning my next big trip...anyone want to accompany me? :)


visited 15 states (30%)



visited 8 countries (3.55%)


Saturday, September 19, 2009

Lackadaisical

Main Entry: lack·a·dai·si·cal
Pronunciation: \ˌla-kə-ˈdā-zi-kəl\
Function: adjective
: lacking life, spirit, or zest :

I feel like that word describes me fairly well at this moment. Lately, my life has had glimmers of hope, snapshots of happy but I can't say that is a constant. I wish I could. But sometimes I need to remind myself of all the wonderful things in my life so keep me going. So here is list:

  • Meeting the other bridesmaids in Kim's wedding and really getting along with them

  • Building my friendships with the other hall directors

  • Being there to witness my best friend from high school getting married

  • My regular run around Lake Baldwin on Friday afternoons

  • Getting the courage to reconnect with old friends

  • Hearing God's whisper telling me that my purpose right now is to dream my own dreams, that He is in control, and He will provide for what I'm longing for when the time is right

  • Spending time with my Grandma and Aunt

  • Knowing my family supports me and is always there for me


My hope is that this list will continue to grow and that even when I'm down I will be able to recognize my blessings.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Giveaway at "Your wishcake."



I've never participated in a giveaway or blogged about a giveaway - so there is no better time to start than now!

When I revamped my blog, I joined a community of bloggers call "20 somethings." Through that group I have been exposed to some fabulous blogs! One of them being Your wishcake. I always enjoy her posts :)

She posted a giveaway on her site yesterday. I encourage everyone to check it out because she is truly talented!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Virtual Car Wash

On Friday, I had the privilege to meet and hear speak a man who started the largest gang intervention organization in the nation. His name is Father Greg Boyle. He is a Jesuit priest who lives in East LA who has been befriending and caring for gang members for nearly twenty years. He loving refers to them as homeys and homegirls. I first learned about him through a book written by Celeste Fremon called "G-Dog and the Homeboys." The book is about Father Greg's life and the lives of some of the gang members he has touched. When he spoke on Friday, he emphasized the idea of kinship and helping people rediscover the truth of who they are in God. Obviously that is a very condensed version of all the ideas he shared but it was very moving.

Father Greg is the Executive Director of Homeboy Industries. Part of his outreach to the gang members was to find them employment. So he opened the Homeboy Bakery. It's mission is "to create an environment that provided training, work experience, and above all, the opportunity for rival gang members to work side by side." The organization now has five businesses: Homeboy Bakery, Homeboy Silkscreen, Homeboy Maintenance, Homeboy/HomegirlMerchandise, and HomegirlCafé. He shared with us that in order to raise money to continue operating, they created a Virtual Car Wash. All they are asking for is $10 to help raise money for all the wonderful things Father Greg and Homeboy Industries are trying to do.

Click here to get your car virtually "washed."

Friday, August 14, 2009

Giving Away The Pen

I have decided to give God the pen to my love story. He has given us His greatest love so why shouldn't I trust him to give me my perfect romance as long as I am faithful? My "forever" love story is being written by God even as we speak. I just have to surrender the pen that I for so long have tried to control.


I posted the following post originally on December 9, 2007 (I have tweaked it some for this post). I think it does a pretty good job explaining some of my emotions right now. I knew I wouldn't have been able to fully express myself, but I'm glad I was able to find something that was close enough for now:

I'm trying to be positive about everything but it is really hard. This week coming up is finals and I think it has knocked the Earth off of its normal rotation and is making EVERYTHING (and everyone) go a little kooky.

I thought that everything in my life was finally aligning. Ha...

I realized today that despite recent occurrences, I am worth it. Do I have places to grow and improve? Of course, everyone does. Do I believe that we all should be respectful and patient with people that are actually doing things to change? Absolutely.

I have also come to realize that I am ready for an unbreakable, unstoppable, head-over-heels, fight-for-each-other, do-anything-for kind of relationship. This is my public declaration: I will not settle until I have that kind of relationship. I haven't had one yet, but I have no doubt that it will be amazing.

Until then, I choose to be in love with God. Why? Because he romances me every day of my life. No matter how much I run from him, he does not let me leave. He has unending patience and love for me. This has been a struggle for me to come to this place because I feel really let down in a lot of areas of my life. I was at a place that I wanted to give up on my faith, but I know I need to trust that God knows my future. As long as I keep seeking him, He will lead me in the right direction.

I thank Ingrid for this verse:

"I say this because I know what I am planning for you,” says the Lord. “I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future. Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will search for me. And when you search for me with all your heart, you will find me!"
Jeremiah 29: 11 - 13

I was at the point of saying, why believe in something that every time my prayers are "answered" I'm hurt? When I should be saying: I may not understand why things are working out this way, but I trust you and know that you would never hurt me. He is just preparing me for something more fulfilling than I can even fathom.

Romanced by God? What does that even mean? (Are you asking yourself that? I did at first too, but it makes complete sense.) Sunrises, Sunsets, Snow falling on Christmas, Fireflies at dusk, Light breeze on a sunny day, rays shining through the clouds. God romances us with the beauty of nature.




Can you believe the brilliance of the colors of the leaves? It was even more beautiful in person. We live in such a fast-paced world. Take the time to thank God for his creation. In the moments of utter beauty, when everything in the world seems to stop just so you can enjoy the moment, you are given a glimpse of Eden. The way the world was supposed to be. He loves us enough to show us that even when we are so undeserving, like I was when I doubted him.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Busy Worker Bee

I'm taking a short hiatus from regular updating because this time of year is super hectic in the Residential Life realm of the world :) Training new staff members, nightly hall staff meetings, new residents moving in, etc. etc. = 9am to 9pm days!

Expect a post soon after the 24th!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Run Whitney Run

I have decided to commit myself to a few events this semester. I figured if I put them on here I would be more likely to actually register and train for them. I hope my friends will be joining me on a few of these.

September 26 - Miracle Miles 5K
October 18 - U Can Finish 5 Miler
October 24 - Nike Human Race 10K Trail Race
November 14 - Fight for Air Climb 2009
November 25 - Gobble Gallop
December 13 - Elf Classic


And of course these will all slowly be helping me prepare for the Disney's Princess Half Marathon on March 7, 2010!

I will keep you updated on my progress and results!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Old Shirts? New Blanket!

Somehow I tend to accumulate lots of t-shirts. I think most of the people I know have more than they know what to do with. I got to that point at the beginning of the summer when my t-shirts didn't fit into one dresser drawer. Sad...I know. I have to say that I don't know if what I did with them was exactly original but I love the result.

First, I had to figure out which shirts I was willing to give up. I had three main sections of shirts: Random, FSU, and Rollins. I couldn't think of anything I could do that would make sense for the Random shirts and I still work at Rollins so I wear those shirts very often. So that left the FSU group. I would never think of getting rid of my FSU shirts because they are full of memories. What better to show them off than to make them into a quilt!

I don't own a sewing machine and when I was younger I made several blankets by knotting. So that's what I decided to do. What a process this project was. Just to give you a run down: cut the shirt to separate the front and back, decide the size of the rectangle pattern, cut all of the shirts to that size, decide on a backing, determine how many rectangles across and down, cut half -inch slits around ALL edges, arrange the rectangles, and start knotting!

Here is the finished product:

Close up:

Shot of the backing I chose. Comfy gray fleece :)

I can't wait for the cooler weather to come! I imagine opening my back doors and enjoying the weather under my new fleece FSU blanket that was made with love!

Friday, July 31, 2009

StyleScope

This post is a shout out to Simplify 101.


As an organization and design junky, I love learning about new ideas to declutter my home and make it beautiful. Therefore, one of my favorite websites is Simplify 101. It has tons of free resources (including monthly newsletters) that give you ideas for your home, office, or life in general. So of course, I follow the blog on the website. Yesterday, her blog was about figuring out your style. It immediately appealed to me because although I think my apartment is cute and homey, I wouldn't necessarily say it has a defined style. The post included a link to the Home Goods website, specifically to the StyleScope quiz.

Side note: My only criticism for this quiz is that it doesn't give you the options to see what all of the possibly results could be in case you wanted to compare and contrast. If I answer one question differently, it seems to give a new style so I think it would be interesting to see all the outcomes.

My style is: Country Classic.


I think it is pretty accurate. Here is what is says:

"You have a naturally refined sensibility with an appreciation for tradition and history. You value beauty, craftsmanship, and family heirlooms, but you like to open things up with pretty, easy-going pieces like painted wood or distressed furniture, lovely florals and other patterns, and bunches of fresh flowers that give your home a breezy, relaxed feeling. You love unique finds, have a thrifty, creative side, and can make these things work together.

You value comfort. Your home is a warm and open friendly place, and you feel happiest when everyone is cared for and relaxed in your space. Elements like pillows, throws, overstuffed furniture, and good lighting set the mood. You may also enjoy layering different fabrics or mixing patterns to create a cozy effect."

What's your style??

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Home Sweet (New) Home

My summer vacation ends tomorrow (cue violins).... But thankfully I was able to get one last vacation in before my hectic schedule begins. This past weekend I visited my parents in Nashville.

Well I flew into Nashville, but they live in Gallatin which is about 20 or 30 minutes outside of the city. Because my flight was late taking off, it wasn't until about 11 that we reached the house. This was my first time to my parents' new house so I was really excited. I had already seen some pictures but I hadn't seen it yet with their furniture and all the special touches that make it a home. So when my Dad and I got to the house, he gave me the grand tour. The house is so cozy - I really loved it! The neighborhood is a golf community and our house is right on the golf course so the scenery is also very nice. So that night (Thursday), we just chatted a bit, I loved on Sammy and then it was bedtime.

Friday morning I woke up and my Mom and I walked throughout the neighborhood. It was great exercise because it's rather hilly. But it was great catching up with her and just looking at all the beautiful houses. And of course, a trip to see my parents isn't complete unless my mom and I go shopping. This is what happens when you go in to Michaels just for fun:

Then we ventured to the mall and I used up my Macy's gift card. Speaking of shopping and bargain hunting, I bought a dress from Macy's for $20 that was originally $80. And my Mom and I both got scarves from American Eagle for $3 that were originally $20! I was proud of our purchases if I do say so myself.

That night when my Dad got home from work, we had a yummy dinner and then took Sam on a walk on the golf course. The sunset was amazing and it was fun taking some practice swings. Don't judge my form haha.



This may be a slight tangent but if there was ever such a thing as having a favorite bug, mine would be a firefly. I've never seen one in Orlando and the first time I saw one was in Tallahassee probably about 3 years ago and I was so awestruck by them. They appear during one of my favorite times of the day and I think they are magical. There were so many in the brush between our house and the golf course. It was such a treat for me to just watch them.

Saturday, my Mom and I went on another shopping adventure to a thrift store that a columnist called "Ms. Cheap" wrote about in the Nashville newspaper. They actually had beautiful wedding dresses for only $50. I don't believe I'll be getting married any time soon and I don't know how I feel about getting my wedding dress at a thrift shop, but I was intrigued enough to try one on! It was one of those "beautiful on the hanger, but not on me" types of situations. So I walked away with nothing. But nonetheless, it was fun! :) Then we went and saw The Ugly Truth. A little unnecessarily vulgar, but it was cute and we enjoyed it.

That night we met my Dad at his work and went downtown. What a great place to people watch! Ten times better than the airport haha. I was hoping for a celebrity spotting (according to my mom, Carrie Underwood was seen there the weekend before). But no such luck. Either way, we had a great dinner and a great time walking around and being in the hustle and bustle of downtown night life.


Poor baby...He looked so sad just laying there...




Sunday, I was able to sleep in which was nice. After a yummy breakfast made by my Dad, we all (yes, including Sam) made our way to the Harpeth River State Park. The directions I got weren't all that great but we finally reached our destination. It is spread out over several different places so we were able to get out walk around a bit and then drive a little more to see some other sights. We saw signs for canoeing, hiking, horseback riding, and zip lines so I know this will be a place that I will definitely go back to. It was so much fun spending quality time with my parents, watching Sam swim in the river, and seeing such a beautiful area.





Unfortunately, my visit was coming to an end. We went home and I got ready for my flight. The weekend seemed to go by so quickly but I'm grateful for being able to make the trip and I can't wait to go back!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Shopping for a Cause

If you enjoy shopping, then we have one thing in common. If you enjoy a bargain, then we now have two things in common. I think one of the things that makes me most excited is finding a great sale and being able to tell people about it. The funny thing is, the items that I purchase that are the least expensive are what I get the most complements about. I love fashion magazines, but I could never stomach spending $400 on a pair of flip flops. That just doesn't make sense...

So I've been going on and on to say that when I find good bargains or a good website, I will share it with all of my wonderful readers. Today, I discovered Global Goods Partners. This website is dedicated to giving women artisans from Asia, Africa, and the Americas opportunities to sell their goods to consumers in the United States. You can browse the website for everything from jewelry to home goods to children's toys.

I will share just a few of my favorite items but I hope you will visit the website by clicking HERE!

How gorgeous are these bangles. They promote environmental sustainability because they are made of ankudu wood and vegetable lacquer. The best part: They are only $5.50!


The site has many beautiful scarves but I decided to feature the least inexpensive choice. These scarves are hand woven and I think that is so special.


Lastly, I thought these coasters were so unique. What I like most about this item is that the cost helps support advocates fighting for clean water for rural Swaziland.


I hope you enjoy the site as much as I do.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Taking Flight

I took my first flight when I was around 15 and the appeal hasn't worn off yet. I feel like I'm partaking in a miracle. I understand there is science behind why a humongous steel machine can fly, but part of that must be a miracle.

I know airports and flying cause anxiety for some people but not for me. I love everything about the airport: the excitement of knowing that I am doing one of most favorite activities, traveling. Of course, there are reasons to not like the airport: overpriced food, delayed flights, long security lines. And I don't mind taking off my shoes but I do mind when other people have stinky feet. (Is that judgmental? Probably :/ but stinky feet is the worst.)

What a great place for people watching. I can't help but wonder what their destination is and why are they going there? Visiting friends, visiting family, spontaneous vacation, business...the options are endless. Side note to the couple fighting in the terminal: you have taught me a valuable lesson. Anger is not cute and not impressive. I understand everyone has unhappy moments, but like PDA, it is better left behind closed doors. Funny thing is, I saw this same couple in the terminal on the way home. They seemed happy this time so good for them :)

It's a good thing I like airports because my flight going and coming was delayed. But the trip was well worth it. Stay tuned for my next post because I will be sharing some photos from Nashville and the time I spent hanging with my Mom, my Dad, and Sammy!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Out of the Box

This post is dedicated to my female readers. I think I might even advise my male readers to not go any further....

It is never too early to start thinking about the holidays and fun holiday crafts. The following craft is one of the best I've seen. And by "the best", I mean, out of the box. Too bad it wasn't something that I came up with. Here it is:




Can you figure out what it is? If you can't, click HERE to read more!

**Edit: Well that is a bummer...as of Saturday night, I can't get the webpage to open anymore. The ornaments are made out of tampons haha!**

**Edit 2: It's Monday night, and the link is working :) yay! Enjoy**

Sunday, July 19, 2009

New Layout = Re-energized

For the past few days, I have been updating my blog layout. I knew I wanted to start blogging again on a regular basis but I wanted to do an overhaul on my blog before I really got started. I hope you like it and I will be posting soon with an update on my life for the past 6 months. A few of the highlights being traveling to Costa Rica, graduating from my Master's program, and making the important decision to continue my schooling. I hope you will check back in a couple days to get all caught up!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Website Recommendation

If any of you are like me, I like to check the weather in the morning to figure out what my outfit should be for the day. However, when it gets a little cooler outside, I never know exactly what would be the best to wear. For example, weather.com says it will be 64 degrees tomorrow. So do I need a sweater? or not? Well, my question is answered for me at cumul.us.

It suggests that tomorrow I should wear a long sleeve shirt, jeans, and sunglasses :) How fun!

The other cool thing about this website is that it gets its forecast from looking at a 5 different weather websites: Weather Underground, The Weather Channel, WeatherBug, National Weather Service, and AccuWeather. I think everyone should check it out!